Thank God for saving my life!

Hello,

It's been a long time since I write blog. Was hospitalised for 2.5 days. Was in terribly pain and no choice, got to go hospital A&E Dept at midnight.

I was very sad to know that my sickness has been deteriorated and it affected my kidney now. Was even sad to know that I am not encouraged to get married and give birth to baby. So sad... :'(

However, I am okay now. I know it's all in God's plan. He will provide the best life partner for me and he would use my life as a living testimony as how I encouraged my cell members during teenz camp. God has His own timing. There's nothing to fear as God is my strength when I am weak.

Now, still got a little bit pain. But I believe God will eventually heal me.

Thank you Jesus, for saving my life!

Amen!


Signing off...

I WANT TO QUIT!

I WANT TO QUIT!

TAK BOLEH TAHAN ALREADY!

VOLCANO IS BURSTING!

DON'T CARE ALREADY!

ARGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Her last day at workplace

Glad and happy to get to know her during work. Although she might be anti-social and quiet. I'm sure she has her own strength that no one has discover with it.

All the best in her future path!

Muz keep in touch ya! :)

"Heng ah"!

Woah! Today really "heng ah"! She nvr scold me sia.. If she treats me everyday like today, it will be very nice. She actuallyhelped me for the dinner outing. How nice of her. Anyway, the outing is cancelled.Well.. Sounds good to me that I actually no need to proceed to plan in depths but abit sad coz I ald prepare and source this for like a few weeks ald. hmm.. anyway, happy la, today nvr got scolding at all.

Dunno about tmr.. Anyway, I scared to see her tmr.. how sia? haiz :S

Hope tmr will be like today. Carefree.. lol

Thank You Jesus! I know it's you who turned the whole situation from bad to good. Amen! :D

I am well

FINALLY! I am well. Phew! Have been sick for three weeks. haiz..

Juz dont feel like gg to work tmr.. How sia? I got this feeling, I am gg to cry tmr. How sia? Today took MC, resting at home. Am 90% well now. Think it's becoz lack of sleep and too tired then immune system is protesting, that's why.

Juz regretted to check my email juz now. She has been emailing me like 3 or 4 inbox. After I read, I seriously stress lo, then I went to play fb games after long time nvr play ald. So shiok! Nvr been so relaxing for long long time, ever since I started to work. Have been very stress, work and work and work, nvr rest properly. Felt like I'm even geng than the machine or robot sometimes.

 But tmr how? I seriously stress liao. Somehow felt that still got lots of things to complete. Tmr is my doom day. I'm in big trouble now. She juz wanna care everything. Can she juz stop controlling the way I work? Although I have no experience, but can you juz leave me alone and stop adding me stress? The more stress I am, the more unefficient I am. Serious.

Actually really want to quit ald. But I only work for 4 months plus. Where can say dont work then really dont work? What happened to my resume then? Who else is gg to hire me after knowing that I only worked for 4 months then quit. And I dont think both of them will gg to say something nice about me. They dont backstab me then I very grateful ald. Seriously.

How? How? How? What am gg to do? It's worse than during my schooling time. Can I dont work tmr? But how? Argh!

Someone said it's better that the boss kept scolding and nagging you than the boss who nvr care and talk to you. Ya, I agree with this. But sometimes, I juz feel like telling her to juz leave me alone. Dont care the way I work. I got my dignity you know.. Suka suka scold ppl like nobody business. Juz take care of your own health. Angry so much for what! Argh!

Updates

Hi there

It's been long time since I've stopped blogging here. Well, update abit la.

I graduated from BA course already. Thank God for good result. I am satisfied with the result though I feel I can do it better actually.

Well.... IT'S OVER! So just accept it lo.

I juz started to work 4 months ago. Got to learn from the scratch. In the beginning...

It's a tough and torturing training for me. I cried almost everyday. I got scolded everyday. From happy and excited became trembling fear, from passion became "THIS IS AN ORDER!" So scary, juz don't feel like going to work anymore.

But...

Thank God for wonderful colleagues. They all treated me so well that I felt much warmth and blessed. Suddenly all the sadness and guilt gone. Thanks to all gor gor and jie jie for taking good care of me. Sorry that sometimes I made you all angry and yet you all never scold me and trying to calm me down after my mistakes. Thank you very much.

26 Jan was our Home's CNY celebration day. Because of her, we are ehem ehem now. but false one. but now everyone is trying to pull our string tgt so that we can become the true ehem ehem... Oh well...

We have been acted like one now but actually we are not. So dilema and complicated.. ish.. Will we be able to be...? Only God knows it.

When is Friday going to come? I think before Friday comes, I'm half dead already. It's just another 4 more days to go! Jiayou! After that, I'll be free from this BA monster. Have been haunted for the past one year.. I like the module itself, but not the assignments and thesis. They can really make an energetic person to become a weak and always in low batt status person. So tired!

He's going to meet us at 9am tmr morning but I now only in chapter what... haiz.. I cant tell him not to meet rite? Why must meet him early in de morning? I DON'T WANT! but... no choice :(

Strategic Mgt is not done yet. This is worse! Not even 20% of the work is done.. Frankly speaking, I haven't start anything yet.. O no! Got to hand in on the 10th or 11th.. How? PLS SAVE ME! I can't take it anymore. LORD, PLEASE HELP ME! I WANT MY FRIDAY!!!

Okay.. I have one solution:

7 & 8 May - Thesis
8& 9 May - SM
10 May - Submission & Viva voce -.-'

All the best!

Before Christmas?!

Before Christmas???

Very challenging sia..
I can try but need time to balance up between my education, piano practice and ministries..
Kind of hard, SERIOUSLY!

Well, it's also for my own good. I do appreciate you for being so kind and concern.
I'll try to do asap..

Pls be patient with me. Dont angry with me ya. Chill! Sit back and relax abit. Good for your health..

I'm trying, k? Just give me more time. I need lots of time to digest..

Thanks. Cheers! :)

Shall I?
Should I?
May I?
Can I?

Feel like telling her, dunno whether she agrees with it or not..
What if she doesnt agree?
What am I going to do?
Will I be able to cope and balance it?

???

I WANT HOLIDAY!

I WANT MY HOLIDAY!!!

Dont feel like doing case study already. Now I think of it, i feel like vomit.. Stress sia!

Dont feel like doing anything but to go vacation. But cannot.. got class and tonne of assignments
awaiting me.. :'(

And can I dont perform? I scared la.. I scared I cant play perfectly during that day.. Then they will dissappointed and me.. embarassing!

Feel like gg to the sea for a loud scream so scream away all my stress... I really can't take it already :'(

Shall I?

Shall I?
Stopped for 7 yrs ald leh..
Am I able to do it?
Theory ok la.. but Practical leh?
Or shall I go for theory exam 1st?
Practical, wait till next yr June?

She's good at words that really aspire me to take exam without hesitation. But am I able to do it?
If this time I fail, which means I have to retake and choose new pieces for exam leh.. How huh?
What am I suppose to do which is de best for me now?
GOD................. HELP ME!
PLSSSSSS........................................ Tell me what to do.........................

Seems like I am extra here :(

My latest diary

I am super tired and sleepy now.. When can I really take a break? Dont feel like graduate but this kind of life is juz torturing me.. Lack of sleep and muz tolerate other ppl's styles and characters. Has been busy for these few months.. I can be an owl now.. no sleeping overnight. Somehow missed my bed, pillow, blanket and "Bennie Bear" very much..

Got to rush assignments like nobody business.. Boi Ta Han! Quite stress and tiring experiences.. Have to start to find a suitable company to work part time as I am waiting the degree intake dunno when.. Finding a suitable room to stay in sg as well..Juz couldnt understand how is it de person so autocratic till everyone has to give in to her.. Is face so important that can ignore the person who is really in needs?

Ltr gg to meet them.. Dunno what to say and react.. Hope everything goes smoothly ltr..
Hope to see the place before any actions started..

To God Be The Glory!

To God be the glory!
To God be the glory!
To God be the glory!
For the things He has done!
With His blood, He has saved me,
By His power, He has raised me;
To God be the glory!
For the things He has done!

Come Home Running

chorus:
So come home running,
His arms are opened wide;
His name is Jesus, He understands,
He has the answers, you are looking for;
So come home running, Just as you are!

Mujizat Itu Nyata!

Ni Sheng Ji Ru Ci Zhen Shi!

v1:
Tak terbatas, kuasaMu Tuhan,
Semua dapat Kau lakukan;
Apa yang kelihatan mustahil bagiku,
Itu sangat mungkin bagiMu.

chorus:
Di saatku, tak berdaya,
KuasaMu yang sempurna;
Ketika ku percaya, mujizat itu nyata,
Bukan krana kekuatan,
Namun rohMu ya Tuhan!
Ketika ku berdoa, mujizat itu nyata!

v1:
Zhu Ni Neng Li He Qi De Wei Da,
Zai Ni Ye Mei You Reng He Xian Zhi;
Sui Ran Wo Kan Dao De Shi, Bu Ke Neng De Xian Shi,
Zai Ni Que Mei You Nan Cheng De Shi.

chorus:
Dang Wo Gan Dao Ruan Ruo Wu Zhu,
Ni Neng Li Xian De Wan Quan;
Wo Yao Quan Xin De Xiang Xin,
Ni Sheng Ji Ru Ci Zhen Shi;
Bu Shi Zi Ji, Yi Kao Shi Li,
Nai Shi Yi Kao Ni De Ling;
Wo Xiang Ni Quan Xin Qi Dao,
Ni Sheng Ji Ru Ci Zhen Shi!

Ai Ke Yi Zai Geng Duo Yi Dian Dian!

v1:
Wo Ke Yi Yong You Quan Shi Jie, Que Mei You Ai,
Wo Ke Yi Ming Bai Suo You Shi, Que Hai Shi Kong Bai;
Wo Ke Yi Yong Xin Xin Yi Shan, Que Hai Shi Gu Dan,
Zhe Shi Jie Mei You Liao Ai, Yi Qie Reng Shi Hei Bai.

pre-chorus:
Bu Yao Mai Chang Zai Xin Li, Ba Ai Shuo Chu Lai,
Bu Yao Muo Muo Zai Yi Pang, Ba Ai Huo Chu Lai.

chorus:
O.. Ai, Ke Yi Zai Geng Duo Yi Dian Dian,
Bu Pa Bei Shang Hai, Ba Ling Hun Suo Qi Lai;
Ai, Ke Yi Zai Geng Duo Yi Dian Dian,
Cong Tian Fu Lai Di Ai;
Ba Ju Pai Nuo Kai,
Fa Xian Xing Fu Zai Zhuan Jiao Yu Ni Xiang Yu;
Yi Shun Jian, Zhe Shi Jie Bian De Hao Mei!

Ta Ming Shi Quan Neng

v1:
Ta Ming Shi Quan Neng, Quan Neng Di Shang Di,
Zhu Ah Wo Jing Pai Ni;
Yi Qie Ta Dou Neng, Wan Shi Dou Ke Neng,
Yi Zhou Wan Wu Zu Zai.

pre-chorus:
Dang Wo Gan Dao Mei You Neng Li,
Mei You Ren Wo Ke Xun Mi;
Ni Di Ai Shi Wo Jian Gu,
Ni Di Ming Gei Wo Gui Shu;

chorus:
Ye He Hua Quan Neng Zhu..
Bi Ran Cheng Jiu,
Bi Ran Cheng Jiu;
Zhe Shi!

What A Mighty God We Serve!

What a mighty God we serve,
What a mighty God we serve;
The angels bow before Him,
Heaven and earth adore Him;
What a mighty God we serve!

What a mighty God we serve,
What a mighty God we serve;
What a mighty God we serve,
What a mighty God we serve!

Hallelujah! Praise the Lord! Amen!
Hallelujah! Praise the Lord! Amen!
Hallelujah! Praise the Lord! Amen!
Hallelujah! Praise the Lord! Amen!

I'm So Glad!

I'm so glad.. Jesus lifted me,
I'm so glad.. Jesus lifted me;
I'm so glad.. Jesus lifted me,
Singing Glory Hallelujah..
Jesus lifted me!

When I was in trouble.. Jesus lifted me,
When I was in trouble.. Jesus lifted me;
When I was in trouble.. Jesus lifted me,
Singing Glory Hallelujah..
Jesus lifted me!