How Can It Be?

How can it be?(sob)

Who is de one who said since now is holiday, juz teach them more?
Who is de one who said 1 1/2 hours of tuition a day not enough?
Who is de one who said each day must tuition at least 3 hours?
Who is de one who said dont let them watch too much of tv programmes and play ps or whatsoever?

It's all their aunts and mum said..
But now put all de blames on my mum and me... (Argh......)
But actually it's not their aunts and mum's fault. They did dat was for their own good juz dat these two kids didnt understand it.

They dont wish to understand it.. Dat's de problem la.. Dat time.. it's de older bro who strongly disagreed dat de tuition extended for at least 3 hours.. De younger one agreed wif it and happily accepted..
But it's de younger bro now who said and cried for dying to go home terribly..
Whatever.. their mum is reaching soon..

Let's see what thier mum will say.. I'm so irritating wif them.. Fine! I'm not teaching them tuition.

Okok... enough about them.. made me feel so down now..
There's two songs I suddenly think of to calm myself.. God, help me to forgive them.. Thank God! =D

Song's Name: With All I Am

V1
Into Your hand, I commit again
With all I am for You, Lord
You hold my world, in the palm of Your hand
And I am Your's
Forever

Chorus
Jesus, I believe in You
Jesus, I belong to You
You're de reason that I live, the reason that I sing
With all I am

V2
I'll walk wif You, wherever You go
Through tears and joy, I'll trust in You
And I will live, in all of Your ways, Your promises,
Forever

Bridge
I will worship
I will worship You (Repeat)

Song's Name: We Give Thanks

Chorus
We give thanks
We give praise
For we know that all things work together for our good
We give thanks
We give praise
For by faith, we know Your grace will see us through

Reunion!

Went to red box and f cube today wif hyma, melissa and joanne..
Was happy.. Long time nvr being crazy like today..
Met wif aqila and sama oso..
Long time nvr meet up, everyone became prettier now..
Almost cant recognise ald..
Sang for 4 hours and play board games for 2 hours.. Cool!

I think de red box ppl will be very fed up wif us..
They'll b wondering, "why these 4 gals made de place a mess?"
haha... not purposely de la..
Accidentally broke their glass and made de place so wet..
At first, joanne then hyma..
but as for hyma's de glass was not broken.. phew! Thank God!

Tmr will be going to sg wif them.. haha.... so excited.. going to orchard..
Should b super crowd tmr..
Dont care.. most importantly is be happy and feel de atmosphere of christmas..

Signing off.. =)

Happy Now!

yoyo!
Yesterday, I went to see one of de sg celebrity, Moses Lim in jb. His life testimony was very amazing and interesting. Finally got to see him in person instead of through tv programmes.
Was glad that I was there. hehe =)

Finally got well now. Can eat whatever I want. So happy.. Will be busy wif activities these few days. Finally can enjoy now! haha =D

Still waiting for de new class schedule to be out..

Signing off...

Long Updates about me!

Hey, there!
Was sick for 3 weeks..
Sad sia! Cant eat my favourite foods.. haiz....
Today's blog might be super long lo..

1st..
1 week before I went to Cambodia, I fall sick.. I went to see doc so dat i could get well asap..
Then de doc was super cute lo.. She was afraid to give me any medicine coz i was allergy wif panadol.. She said this medicine i cant consume.. dat one i cant consume.. so sian lo... I was like open my mouth big big lo... (shocked).. Then I felt a little better and there I went to Cambodia happily but still sick.

2nd..
I felt terrible when I reached Cambodia. Was too sick.. Cant talk properly.. Kept on coughing non stop.. No more voice. Was tempted to eat de duck egg wif de little duck inside but cant eat.. Coz i was feeling so terrible dat if I was to eat it, I could definitely vomit it out... Wat to do? No choice lo! But got a chance to eat spider's leg, water lily's seed, super sweet pineapple, etc..
I was happy in Cambodia.. I enjoy it very very much.. Can serve together wif my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ. Was assistant leader and treasurer at dat time.. Was super stress then. coz dunno how to calculate de rating of khmer real and usd. Thank God dat I had many mobilise calculator (helpers) helping me.. haha... Thx guyz!
Got a chance to ride on de pony and ox.. watched de sunset.. went to de cultural tour.. ride on motorbikes and tuk-tuk (taxi) and so on...
Was touched by de blind man family.. Thought of helping him up to fix his roof and house but cant coz it will take de whole day of doing dat.. We still need to teach English in one of de school later. So we cant.. Abit sad and dissappointed lo.. But I thank God for de pastors there for willing to be there to help him up.
We got a chance to visit the museum there too! I was excited although I already visited de museum four yrs ago. Know their history better..
Then we played de angel and mortal game.. Mayb my group only have 8 person so all of us seemed to be expert that we actually can guess who is who quite easily.. I like this team very very much. Muack!

3rd..
Then I came back to Malaysia through Singapore from Cambodia.. Went to eat de Popeye Fastfood Restaurant at Changi Airport. Mayb bcoz of I was not feeling well.. I had no appetite to eat at all.. I cant finish my food.. For those who noes me.. will noe how much will be my appetite.. u will be surprise especially fastfood.. haha..
I went to see doc de next day.. I cant take it anymore.. Felt so terrible.. Then de doc afraid I have tibi ( touchwood!) Then I went for blood test and x-ray scan.. Thank God.. everything is ok.. Juz dat I kena asthma.. no wonder I cant breathe properly well due to de dust.. haha..

4th..
Yesterday we had guests from sg so we went to eat dinner tgt at one of de restaurant.. They ordered curry fish head lo.. I cant eat.. so sad! But mayb my face looked like bitter gourd so my mum gave me one slice of fish without de curry gravy.. However, I was thankful to her then.. haha...

5th..
From today onwards.. I'll be a tuition teacher in my house.. I'll be teaching malay language in de meanwhile.. It's f-o-c though.. But i'm fine of it.. Since I'm kind of free nowadays..
Muz really revise my malay coz lost in touch wif it since I study in sg.. haha... good training for me.. hehe..

Dat's all for now.. Muz eat lunch now.. Signing off..

byebye =)

GAP Food Fair Week 1

hihi....
Today was our gap food fair. Responses were very good. Thank God!
Was raining suddenly but when everybody in de games dept trying to rush to their place to save de fishes and other stuffs, de rain stopped immediately. phew!

My group was in charge of two stalls such as bubble tea stall and sugar cane stall.
De bubble tea was in hot sale today.. Very soon, all sold out. As for de sugar cane, coz dat uncle
not feeling well, most probably leg ache so he didnt managed to do sugar cane, he did ribena and suan mei (plum) juice instead. Quite nice.. hehe.........

As for de poor chrysenthemum + ginseng tea, still left over alot.. haiyo! wasted..
but nvr mind.. most probably de pkc team will finish it. haha.... thx guyz! =)

Next week will be another round of food fair. Looking forward to it. All Glory to God!

Point of view

This week would be de 5th week of my acedemic yr 2, sem 1, term 2. (I suppose)
Wat can I say about this? one word... 'STRESS'
Now everything muz brush up.. assignments + homeworks + tests + exams ~~~
(essay, essay and essay!)

Was rather upset these few days.. Coz of de proposal. Although we have come wif a conclusion and idea but it muz got approval from him.. It's quite tough to please him now.. If this time we didnt come out wif de ideal proposal, our class will be finished! Muz see him next year for de same module.

My other modules muz buck up too.. especially AOA module.. I got E (almost fail) for my term 1 essay. I was upset then.. Now die die oso muz get 30/50 only can pass. and dat would be only a "D". This is not I want to get..

I am now starting to admire myself for being able to do multi-tasks. Can do assignment at de same time playing cafe world and farmville.. haha........... Mayb too stress bah.. got to release it b4 it got worse.. hehe........

signing off =)

New experience!

Last friday, I went to crystal's house. Frankly speaking, this was my 1st time of going to my friend's house in sg. Really enjoy myself there watching hong kong drama. Such a wonderful experience. Welcome back Michelle.. Hope to catch up wif u soon.. hehe :)

Nothing much to say now..

Signing off now.. =)

Year 2, Term 2 Started!

Well.....
Dunno y ever since de term 2 started, I was so emo until I cant control it. There's also frustrations, pissed off within it. Of coz there are happy moments too..

Monday:
- No class coz celebrated Hari Raya for all my muslim friends. Too bad i only got 1 day off
excluding de weekend.

Tuesday:
- Got baq my term 1 essay for de aesthetic of art. I failed de essay. so sad.... got lots comments
from my lecturer. haiz.....
- Then, i got baq my peranakan museum essay too.. Not bad.. still acceptable.. next tue got a
very mini presentation for de museum studies..
- Super pissed off with my buddy. Zzz.......

Wednesday:
- got baq my sas music website research essay. Not bad.. not bad... got improvement.thk God.
hehe... Then managed to study abit of poa in sch lib until 7pm. Go home n continue wif poa and
chatting in fb.. haha....

Thursday:
- got up early to rush to sch.. Coz got poa test mah.. cannot play play u noe.. 5 credits leh.. Then
rain somemore.. Arggh.... Can balance everything but no guarantee whether correct or wrong..
haiz..... shld b better than de 1st test bah.... Tmr no poa but he is kind enough to give us a
chunk of accounting questions as homework as usual.. ha!
- Then, after de poa test, got presentation of the exhibition proposal. It was my 1st time
seeing him really angry and dissappointed at us.. He yelled at us.. well, dat's normal if someone
feel like dat. Thks to him dat we can redo as in edit our proposals into a better one to get a
better grades of dat module. He gave another chance to us.. haha.. He's so kind.. He's super
angry wif us but he's quick to forgive us..
We did enjoy de lecture after de presentation done especially he would tell jokes whereby
some r lame jokes. haha.......
- Then, it was marketing class. He suddenly changed his mind to give us a test today instead of
tmr.. We were all shocked.. (refers to VA). But this test is very special n I enjoyed de process
very very much. Unlike poa, so stress up! haiz.....

But I want to clarify one thing.. I dunno y starting of de new term, I faced many setbacks be it in studies or relationship but I don blame anyone. Especially in my studies, I never ever blame my lecturers for being harsh to me.. I accepted it with a broader mind. It's indeed my mistakes. haha....

Alright! I noe today my blog looked more like a daily diary but it's all my feelings and experiences. And I think this way can help me better to write.Some kind of guidelines la..

Dat's all from my super long posting.. What do u expect? 4 days experiences leh.. hehe


Signing off... =)

What a beautiful girl dat I've met

"whatever the situation is, remember to look back to the cross and ponder over His amazing love and grace towards us. We are undeserving, but yet He loves us for who we are. I pray that with all my heart that you can always find comfort at the foot of the cross."

This were the encourage words from my beloved member.
Thank God for her..
She has been a blessing to me through her experiences, feelings and actions..
Thank God for her.

Cheerz :-D

my feelings

Siannnnnn.....................ah!
Finally can relax abit.
Tdy was my super busy n stress day. Even busy until no time to attend poa class and eat lunch. We ate our lunch at 515pm. Ponteng for once..
Hey, let me clarify this.. I didnt ponteng purposely, k?! I was trying to finished up the 4500 words proposal before 330pm. But at last, we finished at 430pm.. but wif only 3600++

In addition, before I cont wif my proposal, I encountered wif a problem. I cant save de ammendments that I made in cdr. So, muz go n get one more cdr from my classmate. He is kind enough to give me de cdr for free. Thank God for crystal helping me patiently to solve this problem

I'm going to give the credits of this web page to shalini who helped me almost every pages and steps of html n css; crystal who helped me juz now to be able to save well; vignash who although only editted one of my item by changing the colour. Although juz a tiny help, I appreciate it. Thx ya :-)

I was also super duper stress tdy. Coz of de web page and proposal. This morning, as usual I was de earliest ppl to come except for tuesday.. Dunno y.. always late on tuesday.. :-(
Michael shown us a chinese movie called as "ying xiong" which means hero.. then i was resting on the chair, he suddenly switch on the movie. But it was quite interesting, i think. And, I was super tired and blur in the morning. De brain itself cant function properly in the morning.

I got really PISSED OFF!!! by one of my close friend. She can juz anyhow copy and paste from internt. U want to noe the name of my close friend, Sorry ya, I cant tell u coz it's very confidential.

Now i still need to do other assignment through internet oso.

klah.. super tired now.. dont want to type anymore.. Cant take it ald. Going offline..

bye =)

Buck Up!

Hey hey..
Web page?
Thx to my God for sending friends n lecturer to help me up in this complicated web page.
I'm about 50% done. Tmr going to cont. since tmr no class.. haha...

Thx to all my friends n lecturer that help me up in this assignment. Seriously, I'm really grateful to all of u. If not bcoz of u all, I'm finished then!

As for de poa, now I really scared about de result ald.. I got balance but no use.. Coz alot of mistakes. I think by de time he minus this, minus that, nothing much left. lol

Wat to do? Juz try harded next time lo.. Don b so careless like last time. I nvr see the word "half" dat coz me wrong de entire trial balance amount which will oso affect my income statement, balance sheet and statement of OE.

Haiz.... Sad sia.. Wasted...

this is wat will happened if u do too fast without noticing something missing or underlook certain words. too bad.... Sigh.

Hopefully i can finish my web page by tmr. Then I can concentrate other modules such as poa.. O ya.. muz do the proposal oso.. Ok. tmr muz rmbr to do.. If not.... (U shld noe la)

hehe.... dat's all for now.. Super tired tdy.. Have been facing computer for 10 hours.. My eyes need rest b4 it swollen again.. hehe.... Cheerz =)

Zzz

Zzzzzzzz..................
STREESSSsssssss............... ah...
Wat de....
I cant do de web page sia.
How to do la?
How am I going to submit this fri la?
How? How? How?

Long time didnt blog bcoz of this la
so many assignments to do.. Zzzz....... sian...
Still got 8000 words proposal, website research for my sas music, other sas music assignments dat due date not dat early.., museum studies due on nov.. ( phew! Thank God)
Now stuck wif my web page.. Sigh..

Even account homework oso not yet even touch, lol.
After test, not yet even have a chance to touch account since I got so many other urgent assignments need to hand in within this n next week. I think i'm going in de account class wif a blank mind again on tmr la... haiz....... Wat to do?

24 hours seems to b too short n never enough for me la.. I guess many would agree wif my statement above. Especially when there's lots of assignments to submit at de same time. In addition, muz go n attend music concert n write concert report n portfolio for my sas music again.. Haiz......

Well, muz get back to my web page again. Fri muz submit. Muz juz anyhow do lo.. Why muz de proposal n web page's due date r de same? It's this coming fri lo.. :(

Enough now! Muz cont to do web page now b4 I retake next yr.. (touchwood!)

Today's Diary

Today, class resume as usual.
After sick n break for a week, somehow de mood was not there for class.
Today, got new assignment for aesthetic of art. Think it going to b hard. This time muz really put more effort to do. I oso borrow de art book from sch lib.
Dont play, play!
Later kena from her, then u noe.. ha..
Today oso got baq our thick fundamental in gallery photocopy book. It's kind of heavy sia. Juz imagine u bring de books all de way from sch to jb.. muz go through a very pack mrt travel, busy custom, squeeze in de causeway link bus somemore.. haiyo..
very super duper exhausted lo.. then muz walk home from de petrol station near my hse somemore... Sigh..

Got to pack my stuffs now. Juz bought a new book shelf yesterday. hehe..

Bye =)

What can I do now?

Haiz..... (sigh)
So sien.. so bored.....
still sick..
no mood to study leh
next tue resume class ald..
not prepared to sch now.
what to do la?
cant get out of my house yet.
muz get fully well 1st.
so sien ah!

Better Now!

Yeah!
Finally get rid of my right swollen eye.
Juz dat, still got flu. It had not gone yet.
Hopefully can get well b4 sch resume..

Juz now was solving sudoku.
Usually played very happy. De more I play, de more I addicted.
But today, de more I play, de more I feel so miserable.
Very hard to solve it.
Juz dunno y..
Mayb havent play for a long time.
Forgot all de technic ald.. So sad..

But nvm.. no test for dat.. haha.........

gtg.. O ya.. b4 I leave, thx ya for praying for me if u did.. haha.....

bye =)

sick lol :(

Aah chew!
Got flu n a swollen right eye.
Wat to do? Such a lousy weather.
Now getting better after applying eye mo.
Thank God no fever, no sore throat, no cough.
Thank God no nid to go to sch. if not......... u noe la..

Now all I can do is pray, sleep, watch tv, eat, surfing internet.
Cant concentrate to study. Feeling terrible now.

I shall stop here. Write again when i'm getting better.
Those readers, pls pray for me after u read n b4 u leave ya. Thx..
hehe... =)

Recent experiences!

Hey, guyz!
So sorry dat long time din really write n update my blog. Coz have been really busy for my assignments n guess wat? I moved baq to jb ald. I no longer staying in sg ald. So, other than studies, I have been busy of shifting my stuffs baq to jb.

It has been 2 weeks of sch life. Dunno how to say out my feelings. Somehow, I felt stress over my studies ald. Especially for my marketing module. I really dunno why I juz cant really understand whatever Michael teach. Not his fault, I juz don understand. When he asked any questions? I dunno wat to ask him but then, I have lots of things to ask him. I noe it's very chim.... haha... Nvm if u dont understand tis part. hehe :)

As for other modules, I dont really being stretch by them yet. So, I cant give any comments yet. I believed more challenging tasks will come. hmm.......... God, pls help me!!!

Recently, some of my friends were sick. I felt so sad. All I can do is to pray n show concern to them. Hopefully, they r juz sick n not contact wif xxxx. God, pls heal them!!!

Something happened to my friendship again! I have been once again bcame de sausage of de bread. Meaning: middle man. I felt so sad. I dunno how to react whenever they asked which grp will I join. Cant they juz sit tgt in peace? I'm tired of it ald.. God!!!

Prayer:
Lord, thank u for giving me this opportunity to encountered all these circumstances. I noe it's not easy, but I'll cont to put my trust in u. Help me to b grateful to u n not juz complain tis n dat. Pls help me in my studies oso. Help me as how u help me in my yr 1 n even more. Bless me, Lord. Help me to be able to be more n more like u. Lord, I want to pray for my friends n lecturers. Pls help me to rmbr to pray for them as I always forget about them. Bless them too, Lord.
In Jesus' name, I pray, AMEN!

Cheerz ;D

4 more days!

4 more days to go! Shld I b happy or sad?
It's about my working. I have 4 more days to work b4 I resign my job.
I am happy dat I will soon free from working but I think I'll miss all of my colleagues, supervisor, manager n oso regular customers..

Last time I stated dat I have 2 managers. Actually I was wrong. Actually de cool guy is my supervisor n not manager. But however he resigned ald. Dont ask me y coz even I dunno de reason. Then came de new supervisor. She is very "motherly" character. This means she likes to nag n complain alot. Got lots of customers, complain... no customer oso complain... she can juz find fault wif anyone there. Haiz........

Now, I dont really dislike or hate my bossy manager ald.. I've forgiven her. She's ok in my sight now. Really thank God for helping me to forgive her.

Dat's all for now. Nitez.....

UPDATEZ.....!

Yo! Long time didnt write blog ald.. What to write??? Hmm.....

Ahhh!! Update myself la...

I'm currently working as a part time waitress in jb. It's very boring initially. Well, this job really helped me explore the working world reality...

I have two managers. One very bossy; another one, very quite. Totally very different lo..

De bossy manager like to order ppl to do something whenever we r free. She like to order especially ME! She'll like.. "Jacelyn, do this.. do that..." I was so irritating by her lo...

Then, she sometimes will asked something like "u wipe de window ald?"; "u wash toilet later, k?"; etc.. As if like we have signed a contract dat stated Jacelyn wash toilet, Jacelyn wipe window glass, etc..

She like to go out in the middle of working hours. I would rather she's not around when it's my working shift. I will b very moody when she's arnd.. but I'll b very happy n make lots of noise when she's not arnd. All my colleagues oso de same.. So, when she's arnd, by de end of de day, all of us will b super tired.. She'll for sure got something for us to do.

I did alot of mistakes there. Well, she didnt really teach me how de cafe functions. She juz told me de price of de foods. Alot of things dat i learned were during my mistakes. She'll ticked me off by saying u shld do tis, shld not do dat. She think I'm God or wat.... Never say beforehand then scold ppl.. Haiz....

De cooler manager is a guy. He's super cool guy. Never command or order ppl to do things. De most he will say, "table so n so got customer". then we understand. He oso always go out in de midst of working hours. Do all managers de same? Haiz.... haha... Juz kidding! but really lo.. He's not going out wif friends but going out to smoke alone. Most probably too stress or bored I guess. haha.......

My colleagues?? I enjoyed chatting wif them.. All de waitress were from Myanmar. Juz de chef got local, Hidustan, etc... They r all my teachers. They taught me alot of things. I got to chat wif two of my colleagues. They came to msia bcoz they cant cont to further studies due to de financial difficulties n of coz other stuffs but I'm not going to write it out s tis is confidential, I suppose.. But through de conversations, I think they r like me dont really enjoy working there.

Customers???
I like customers. They r oso like my teachers. Most of them r very friendly. While minority r very demanding n fierce. One of de reason dat I still working there is bcoz of customers. I thank God dat most of de customers r very kind to me n r satisfied wif my services. When they happy, I'm happy too... This kind of feeling is very unique. Actually I got de most feedback from them mayb bcoz I'm a chinese. Only I understand chinese since all of them r from myanmar. there's only three chinese in de cafe. they r my bossy manager, one of de new local chef n me. So, of I'll b de one dat customers find since I'm de waitress. I really enjoying chatting wif customers. I'll b very happy when de customers said thank you to me.

Overall...
I'm happy to work there.. Juz dat I dont like my bossy manager. de rest r all fine to me.. I admire n like de demanding ppl but never wif de bossy ppl. So, dat's about my working experience so far... I blieve more challenges to come.. All de best to me ya! hehe...

Cheerz :)

It's the time now!

Yo!
It's time for me to update myself again. hehe...
These few days, I was rather very emo. Do u noe y?
Of coz is bcoz my assessments and examinations la..
I nearly broke down on tuesday due to my favourite video production submission lor.
But I really want to thank God for his mercy dat He didnt leave me alone nor forsake me.
Now, everything is settled! haha....

O ya.. regarding to this oso, I want to grab this opportunity to thank many ppl especially
my classmates. 1stly, I want to thanks Vignash and Majitha for really helping me to solve
my video problem. Sorry for all de troubles.. Next, I would oso want to thank Crystal. She encouraged me to trust God and assured me dat God will definitely help me if I trust Him.
By this, once again I noe dat God is in ctrl of everything. Next, I oso want to thank Keith for encouraging me and listening to my problems patiently through msn n giving me de right advices. Next, it would be my group mates in vp class. Although we r all from diff depts which made us very hard to meet up tgt to discuss assignments but frankly speaking, I'm happy dat I have u gals to be my grp mates and friends. Finally is over! I think now we can relax abit la after all de submission.

And of coz my vp lecturer. Really thanks alot for giving us de last chance to submit. I noe it might not b fair to de others but pls understand dat all of us r from diff depts and is really hard to get tgt to discuss and do final preparations, etc. This is y there's some miscommunication among us during de final assignment. But, really thx alot. Hope dat u will give us a good grade. Thanks.

Arggh.. Still got so many assignments to do. How to finish la??? ...wif these little time left.. haiz......

One more very irritated me is de dance assignment. Tot of finding n discovering more info of my research but ended up muz do extra work. How la? My own assignments oso cant finish. How to do urs? Y la? Cant u juz help me wifout any exchange conditions??? Haiz...... Wat to do???

So, juz imagine next time if I work, I might often face this type of challenge which really test my emotions. Well, as an art manager, this kind of scenario is unavoidable.. But I'm not prepared yet mah.. So fast give me training ald.. Very tired lo..

Haiz........ zzz.........