What can I do now?

Haiz..... (sigh)
So sien.. so bored.....
still sick..
no mood to study leh
next tue resume class ald..
not prepared to sch now.
what to do la?
cant get out of my house yet.
muz get fully well 1st.
so sien ah!

Better Now!

Yeah!
Finally get rid of my right swollen eye.
Juz dat, still got flu. It had not gone yet.
Hopefully can get well b4 sch resume..

Juz now was solving sudoku.
Usually played very happy. De more I play, de more I addicted.
But today, de more I play, de more I feel so miserable.
Very hard to solve it.
Juz dunno y..
Mayb havent play for a long time.
Forgot all de technic ald.. So sad..

But nvm.. no test for dat.. haha.........

gtg.. O ya.. b4 I leave, thx ya for praying for me if u did.. haha.....

bye =)

sick lol :(

Aah chew!
Got flu n a swollen right eye.
Wat to do? Such a lousy weather.
Now getting better after applying eye mo.
Thank God no fever, no sore throat, no cough.
Thank God no nid to go to sch. if not......... u noe la..

Now all I can do is pray, sleep, watch tv, eat, surfing internet.
Cant concentrate to study. Feeling terrible now.

I shall stop here. Write again when i'm getting better.
Those readers, pls pray for me after u read n b4 u leave ya. Thx..
hehe... =)

Recent experiences!

Hey, guyz!
So sorry dat long time din really write n update my blog. Coz have been really busy for my assignments n guess wat? I moved baq to jb ald. I no longer staying in sg ald. So, other than studies, I have been busy of shifting my stuffs baq to jb.

It has been 2 weeks of sch life. Dunno how to say out my feelings. Somehow, I felt stress over my studies ald. Especially for my marketing module. I really dunno why I juz cant really understand whatever Michael teach. Not his fault, I juz don understand. When he asked any questions? I dunno wat to ask him but then, I have lots of things to ask him. I noe it's very chim.... haha... Nvm if u dont understand tis part. hehe :)

As for other modules, I dont really being stretch by them yet. So, I cant give any comments yet. I believed more challenging tasks will come. hmm.......... God, pls help me!!!

Recently, some of my friends were sick. I felt so sad. All I can do is to pray n show concern to them. Hopefully, they r juz sick n not contact wif xxxx. God, pls heal them!!!

Something happened to my friendship again! I have been once again bcame de sausage of de bread. Meaning: middle man. I felt so sad. I dunno how to react whenever they asked which grp will I join. Cant they juz sit tgt in peace? I'm tired of it ald.. God!!!

Prayer:
Lord, thank u for giving me this opportunity to encountered all these circumstances. I noe it's not easy, but I'll cont to put my trust in u. Help me to b grateful to u n not juz complain tis n dat. Pls help me in my studies oso. Help me as how u help me in my yr 1 n even more. Bless me, Lord. Help me to be able to be more n more like u. Lord, I want to pray for my friends n lecturers. Pls help me to rmbr to pray for them as I always forget about them. Bless them too, Lord.
In Jesus' name, I pray, AMEN!

Cheerz ;D

4 more days!

4 more days to go! Shld I b happy or sad?
It's about my working. I have 4 more days to work b4 I resign my job.
I am happy dat I will soon free from working but I think I'll miss all of my colleagues, supervisor, manager n oso regular customers..

Last time I stated dat I have 2 managers. Actually I was wrong. Actually de cool guy is my supervisor n not manager. But however he resigned ald. Dont ask me y coz even I dunno de reason. Then came de new supervisor. She is very "motherly" character. This means she likes to nag n complain alot. Got lots of customers, complain... no customer oso complain... she can juz find fault wif anyone there. Haiz........

Now, I dont really dislike or hate my bossy manager ald.. I've forgiven her. She's ok in my sight now. Really thank God for helping me to forgive her.

Dat's all for now. Nitez.....

UPDATEZ.....!

Yo! Long time didnt write blog ald.. What to write??? Hmm.....

Ahhh!! Update myself la...

I'm currently working as a part time waitress in jb. It's very boring initially. Well, this job really helped me explore the working world reality...

I have two managers. One very bossy; another one, very quite. Totally very different lo..

De bossy manager like to order ppl to do something whenever we r free. She like to order especially ME! She'll like.. "Jacelyn, do this.. do that..." I was so irritating by her lo...

Then, she sometimes will asked something like "u wipe de window ald?"; "u wash toilet later, k?"; etc.. As if like we have signed a contract dat stated Jacelyn wash toilet, Jacelyn wipe window glass, etc..

She like to go out in the middle of working hours. I would rather she's not around when it's my working shift. I will b very moody when she's arnd.. but I'll b very happy n make lots of noise when she's not arnd. All my colleagues oso de same.. So, when she's arnd, by de end of de day, all of us will b super tired.. She'll for sure got something for us to do.

I did alot of mistakes there. Well, she didnt really teach me how de cafe functions. She juz told me de price of de foods. Alot of things dat i learned were during my mistakes. She'll ticked me off by saying u shld do tis, shld not do dat. She think I'm God or wat.... Never say beforehand then scold ppl.. Haiz....

De cooler manager is a guy. He's super cool guy. Never command or order ppl to do things. De most he will say, "table so n so got customer". then we understand. He oso always go out in de midst of working hours. Do all managers de same? Haiz.... haha... Juz kidding! but really lo.. He's not going out wif friends but going out to smoke alone. Most probably too stress or bored I guess. haha.......

My colleagues?? I enjoyed chatting wif them.. All de waitress were from Myanmar. Juz de chef got local, Hidustan, etc... They r all my teachers. They taught me alot of things. I got to chat wif two of my colleagues. They came to msia bcoz they cant cont to further studies due to de financial difficulties n of coz other stuffs but I'm not going to write it out s tis is confidential, I suppose.. But through de conversations, I think they r like me dont really enjoy working there.

Customers???
I like customers. They r oso like my teachers. Most of them r very friendly. While minority r very demanding n fierce. One of de reason dat I still working there is bcoz of customers. I thank God dat most of de customers r very kind to me n r satisfied wif my services. When they happy, I'm happy too... This kind of feeling is very unique. Actually I got de most feedback from them mayb bcoz I'm a chinese. Only I understand chinese since all of them r from myanmar. there's only three chinese in de cafe. they r my bossy manager, one of de new local chef n me. So, of I'll b de one dat customers find since I'm de waitress. I really enjoying chatting wif customers. I'll b very happy when de customers said thank you to me.

Overall...
I'm happy to work there.. Juz dat I dont like my bossy manager. de rest r all fine to me.. I admire n like de demanding ppl but never wif de bossy ppl. So, dat's about my working experience so far... I blieve more challenges to come.. All de best to me ya! hehe...

Cheerz :)

It's the time now!

Yo!
It's time for me to update myself again. hehe...
These few days, I was rather very emo. Do u noe y?
Of coz is bcoz my assessments and examinations la..
I nearly broke down on tuesday due to my favourite video production submission lor.
But I really want to thank God for his mercy dat He didnt leave me alone nor forsake me.
Now, everything is settled! haha....

O ya.. regarding to this oso, I want to grab this opportunity to thank many ppl especially
my classmates. 1stly, I want to thanks Vignash and Majitha for really helping me to solve
my video problem. Sorry for all de troubles.. Next, I would oso want to thank Crystal. She encouraged me to trust God and assured me dat God will definitely help me if I trust Him.
By this, once again I noe dat God is in ctrl of everything. Next, I oso want to thank Keith for encouraging me and listening to my problems patiently through msn n giving me de right advices. Next, it would be my group mates in vp class. Although we r all from diff depts which made us very hard to meet up tgt to discuss assignments but frankly speaking, I'm happy dat I have u gals to be my grp mates and friends. Finally is over! I think now we can relax abit la after all de submission.

And of coz my vp lecturer. Really thanks alot for giving us de last chance to submit. I noe it might not b fair to de others but pls understand dat all of us r from diff depts and is really hard to get tgt to discuss and do final preparations, etc. This is y there's some miscommunication among us during de final assignment. But, really thx alot. Hope dat u will give us a good grade. Thanks.

Arggh.. Still got so many assignments to do. How to finish la??? ...wif these little time left.. haiz......

One more very irritated me is de dance assignment. Tot of finding n discovering more info of my research but ended up muz do extra work. How la? My own assignments oso cant finish. How to do urs? Y la? Cant u juz help me wifout any exchange conditions??? Haiz...... Wat to do???

So, juz imagine next time if I work, I might often face this type of challenge which really test my emotions. Well, as an art manager, this kind of scenario is unavoidable.. But I'm not prepared yet mah.. So fast give me training ald.. Very tired lo..

Haiz........ zzz.........

Sayonara sis..

Sayonara sis..
See you in heaven..
U had been really a blessing to me.
I was really shocked when I heard this news.
Thanks for encouraging me in times of need.
May u rest in peace and I know now u r enjoying and embracing God in love in heaven.
Thanks for everything!
Miss & Love you!

My Current Moodz =)

My current moodz:
"HAPPY", "EXCITED", "RELIEVE"
"STRESS", "ANXIOUS", "SAD"

"HAPPY"
- dat my 2 months real holiday is coming soon. YEAH!

"EXCITED"
- can go to museum again next tue wif my classmates lead by my lecturer. HA!

"RELIEVE"
- after postponed for 2 weeks, finally we managed to shoot video successfully. PHEW!

"STRESS"
- currently very busy wif all my assignments, projects, upcoming tests, quiz and final exams.
- due date at de same time! =(

"ANXIOUS"
- very scared cannot finish my syllabus la. So much! Not yet even got a chance to study. Still stuck wif assignments n projects. :<

"SAD"
- all of de works r reports, ESSAYS, researches n hand-written basis. ):

These are my moodz for these few weeks. Pls cont to pray for me ya.. Thx.. hehe.. :)

Cheerz =)

who cares?!

Haizzzzz.......
Feel so bad now. juz got a nice scolding from the librarian.
How would I noe how to send email to them....
didnt receive oso no nid to b so fierce mah...
think everybody like u ah...
hopefully de application for the video shooting in sch lib will b
success.
if not, then muz try to think of de new location dat actually is in our mind ald.
actually my fault oso..
i shouldnt think too much while emailing them ytd..
i thought muz got format or stuff like dat..
who noes no nid ah....
so frustrated and piss off now.
but muz control my emotion now..
going to shoot video now...
haha...
who cares of her!

Hey, friends! last week was also my interesting week. I got back my SAS Ame on last monday. I got 40%. I dunno whether shld happy or vice versa. I failed for this assignment but 40 is not dat bad coz most of my classmates didnt do well either. Thk God for this was only one of my assignments. TOC is quite good enough s he brought down de marks only for 20% instead of 40% for de whole sem. Coming up next was kay's class. Nowadays, i really enjoy attending her class. She's not dat fierce lk last time. she made de whole class happy n relax lk nobody business wif addition of a few "jokers" in my class. Jokers, u noe who r u la, ha.....

Then coming up was kenneth's class which fall on thur. I think this was my 1st or 2nd time reaching earlier then him. We will often late for his class even juz 5 mins. we learned of de types of lights, colours, abit of formulas on hw to calculate de lighting units, etc.... We also went to National Sg Museum too.. I enjoyed de environment there. it's juz so cosy n nice except for de stupid entrance auto gate (i dunno de actual name=D) dat hits me out of de sudden. i got a shock n abit pain. Don worry, de pain juz stay for awhile. I'm ok ald.. I think shock was greater then de pain lor.. haha... there's a little boy dat i admire most. He was lost in de museum, he didnt cry at all. he called "mummy; mummy" repeatingly in there. He was so cool lo. but we r quite upset to his mum for leaving her son alone. wat if he is not a brave boy? then i sw him sitting on de floor taking down notes, i think is about de info of de exhibitions... WOW! Good job, boy! Actually we didnt really have de mood to go museum coz we were rushing out our dance presentations. we were lk asking, is it over? very nervous n anxious about de presentations s we not yet really prepared for it. But thk God, coz we manage to present it n teresa appraised us for dat..(=

then after de presentation, she gave us back our test papers. I got 56% for dat. Thk God! nothing special for ms chan's class. then on fri, PoM.. I still very scared of de assignment 2 (case study).. really muz pray dat God will give me a spontaneous n creative thinking skill. It's very tough for me! then here come de video shooting! yeah! but... sad to say dat our video shooting didnt went on smoothly. At 1st, we were getting hard time to buy mini dv tape, but thk God, we managed to bought one. then, we cant use de sch lib s one of our story location coz we didnt apply a day earlier. Thk God, dat i asked. if not...... then, we have to wait for one of my grp mates. she was very late.. then when she came, we try to shoot but wif lots of "NGs".. so we cant shoot de video successfully. I think I shld say, we didnt shoot any video scenes on dat day.. but thk God, matthew let us reshoot again this fri.. haha.... i always think dat, my grp always face lots of prob during de process of discussion n even during de actual presentations or something lk dat... well, wat to do? all of us r from diff class, diff dept.. matthew shld consider this oso.. but he is really kind enough to us. This is our final assignment n last chance to get good grades for tis module..

then, on sat.. I was late for class.. coz i was watching drama b4 dat after i finished writing de IP Talk report. So, i have this privillege to walk wif crystal again to sch.. s she also late for class. this week is majitha n me presentation day..scary sia.. dunno anything about de midieval theatre lo.. not prepare at all yet..muz get this for good grade lo... coz i fail for both my quiz so if i fail for this one oso, then, I'm finished!

So, this week, I going to b very busy n really hope dat everything can go well.. o ya.. I still got SAS Ame's presentation regarding to de MICA n kay's essay writing for de visual art painting. Muz rmbr! :(

These few days r quite ok for me. I thank God for term 4.
Juz got all my term 3 results last week. hmm... Shld b counted as last week as today is sunday.
Firstly, I got 60% for kay's lesson which Ireally thk God n her for giving me 60%. Coz really got a bad scolding b4 dat. N I really happy in kay's class with cathy arnd as a joker dat made de whole class bcame alive... hahaha..... thks to her... Next, is kenneth's de. I oso thk God n him for passing me (50%). Coz this one I really think dat I'm going to fail for this module. But really happy dat i pass with juz a passing marks. We went to de Sg Art Museum (SAM) dat day oso. Vey nice.. I like de environment there. I think I shld go to visit musuem more often in de future.

Next, is de dance. hmm... although still dunno de actual marks yet, but my mcq still consider good. Thk God for dat :D Now we have to crack our brain for de assignment 4. Hopefully we can do it well.. hehe... Next, is PoM. Thk God for quite high marks of 77% for my 1st assignment. But I really scared of de 2nd assignment. We r suppose to do case study. I really dunno hw to do leh... :( New assignment for my elective module. Quite interesting for me coz we r suppose to produce our own video. Looking forward very much for this friday. Coz can shoot de video dat located in sch.. WOW! So cool! haha....

As for my theatre module, I got back my assignment 1 (quiz) results ald.. Sad to say dat I only got 2.5 upon 15 marks only. This is kind of very bad lor... :( Well, it's all my fault! coz i didnt really study for dat. I watched drama at nite b4 de day of de quiz.. I'd learned my lsn.. So I study very hard for my 2nd quiz.. Bcoz of my little knowledge about china hist, I'd drag cathy down.. So sorry! Felt very bad about dat.. =(

Really hope dat I can pass all my modules wif flying colours.. Hopefully in this term, I can b more hardworking n coping well all de challenges which I think very hard.. haha.... =) Therefore I want to thk God for de wonderful results in term 3... Thks to all my friends for helping me whenever I dunno wat to do.. Thks ya ppl.. =)

NEW TERM, NEW START!

haha....
finally is term 4 ald..
my current feeling: happy, glad, excited =) but yet nervous, stress, sad =(
dont ask me y..
juz feel like this for no reason..
haha....
time flies so fast, sometimes would like to ask it to slow down..
especially got assignments, projects, tests, reports, examinations,etc...
my beloved cg member has left me ald..
so sad!
nvm.. muz b happy for her
at least now she had grown up
muz b independent ald..
all de best in sunway ya!
hehe=)

Lord, I offer my life to u,
Everything I've been true, use it for ur glory,
Lord, I offer my days to u,
Lifting my praise to u,
As a living sacrifice,
Lord, I offer u my life.

(song - Lord, I offer my life to u - chorus)


When u move in my heart, often I cry,
As u stretch forth ur hand, I'll b touch,
Beyond my tears, but it's more than my feeling, u want;

When I seek u my Lord, u will b found,
I surrender my all, I'll b use,
Beyond my strength, far above my understanding u work.

(song - Fire burn within me - v1 & v2)

U r competing urselves wif business mgt ppl in future! Ppl r queuing up for jobs! Do u think ppl will buy ur artwork? These 3 statements were the statements dat i kept on reflecting these 2 days. perhaps she was right.. as the econ is facing crisis, ppl tend to find jobs desperately..

I was feeling really down these 2 days. but thank God because my friends cheered me up during my b'day.. wif lots of surprises & presents.. i really appreciated it. i think i'm growing fatter now.. thks to them.. hehe...

these 3 statements kept on wandering my mind over and over again.. Well, it's all my fault! i dont blame her for being so HARSH to us. If she didnt, she might b killing our futures. I hope I wont make the same mistakes again and try to improve and increase my knowledge about the visual art.

Actually, now I like her very much and afraid of her at the same time. i like her bcoz she's saving our futures now and afraid bcoz I dont want to make her angry and dissappointed. bcoz she can b dat scary when she was angry.

Hopefully this will b my lsn for not to do things last min and put more efforts on research to produce the best artworks in future.

haix...

I'm very tired now

physically n spiritually

especially physically

muz face so many assignments and grp projects

want to sleep but got haunted wif these assignments and grp projects

when am I going to finish all these?

tmr got test somemore!

haiyo

but I think studying is still better than working

at least lecturer still show grace n ready to forgive whenever we made mistakes

although they might always nag at us, stretch us upside down, giving us so called "stress"

but I still like to be a student..

it's not the same as working

bosses will scold us if we do something wrong

although juz a minor mistake (wat a big deal!)

when we did a very great job, he is happy n will praise us in front of everybody

but if we did something wrong, he will scold us n even fired us instead

so realistic ah!

So, I still prefer to be a student. Although alot of assignments, grp projects, tests n final exams

but I still want to thk God for dat.

THANK YOU JESUS!